Something big happened in my mind that I am always trying to avoid it.
It happened before the fireworks. We were sitting in our Downtown park waiting to watch the show. We were playing our iPhone apps. One of my friend’s sister took it and started browsing my iPhone. In my hand, I was thinking if there is anything about boots and my fetish. Maybe she would look into my Safari history, ebay buy/sell/watching lists or my wordpress apps that has this blog on it. Basically, this is a my last space/area to express my truly self. I did not tell any of my school’s friend about my fetish that I am into boots. I am scared this will ruin my name. After the show, I had a chance to see what she has opened since this is a new feature of iPhone OS 4.0. I saw that she looked into my WordPress app, and she should have seen this blog’s comment and the address of this blog.
I kept thinking about it and I planned to delete or closed or change the address of this blog right after I got home. But I did not.
I changed my mind when I was taking shower. I only think seriously stuff when I am taking shower. I kept thinking about if she will tell anybody of my secrets. I kept thinking she will tell her sister – my friend. Or she will tell anyone. But then, I started to think for myself. Do I really need to care about what anybody thinking about me, even my friends? Will they leave me just because I am into boots? Does into boots equal bad person? Then I come to myself a conclusion that why I can’t live my own life. So I decided to keep this blog running as long as I can. I do not care if any of my friend go on it. This is my life, and “life is short”. You guys always saying I am crazy, and yes! I am crazy!
I know there is not many visitors on this blog, but it’s ok. Because this is a place for me, a place that I can use a fake name to express my real skin.